This means that I have received a psycho-rigid education and have been taught to think about having a career plan, do market studies, think about the future, do forecasts, thin strategically and implement action plans. I have been taught I shall not make mistakes, because they don’t look good on a CV. I have been let to believe that everything should go according to plan, otherwise I need to readjust quickly, not to lose track of what I was doing. It also means that when I arrived at Kingston University to study Advertising in the Creative Economy, I had a very precise idea of what I wanted from life and how I was supposed to get it.
Well, let me tell you this: after a few months of socialising with amazing peeps from all over the world, listening to inspiring lectures and travelling around the UK, France and Sweden following rock bands on tour, I don’t know anything anymore.
Don’t get me wrong, I am still animated by the same passion for music that has motivated me to do this degree in the first place. I still know that my heart belongs to that industry and I don’t see myself anywhere else. However it’s the business side of things I’m not so sure about anymore. Call me crazy but all I want right now is to pick up a guitar, be in a band and tour the world. Okay, that might sound a bit extreme, but what if there was more for me than looking at album sales figures on a screen? What if what I need is a part time job that would get me a regular source of income and allow me to do something creative on the side? Why should I jump into a 9 to 5 routine that would transform me into a working-tax-paying-machine for the rest of my life? Fucking hell, I don’t even know in which country I’ll be a few months from now.
Maybe it’s the idea of ending this cycle of studying and getting into another one that makes me question everything I was so sure about less than a year ago. Maybe it’s just putting myself out there and realising that there is a whole world full of opportunities and possibilities waiting for me. I have just understood that it is alright to make mistakes, because it means taking risks and challenging what SHOULD be to try what COULD be.
So I’d like to thank everyone who has been responsible for this reflective change of plans by challenging me in every possible way and showing me things my previous school kept jealously hidden! Oh I do hate you a tiny bit right now, but mostly I’m grateful that you erased my plans as I know have a blank page to fill from scratch!
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